29 AUG 09
just got back home not long ago..
actually i don want my life to turn upside down, but i know if i cant get to sleep at night my mind will tend to go wild):
because now there's lot of things happening to me):
making me don even know wad to do next?
i even tot of consuming sleeping pills before but i know i will get scolding so i cant do it! now it's not just abt him but friendship too):
i just fall frm there, slowly climbing up but i fall again):
making me don even dare to climb any further):
scare that i will fall again!
it had been 2 days!
god, is it really true abt it?
after so long, finally i gt a proper afternoon nap just now(:
i cried till i sleep after upon hearing the bad thing):
i slept all the way frm 2 to 6(:
just now i saw him, though im somehow expected..
this feeling is just not right):
i don feel happy seeing him but rather i feel weird because my heart just that painful):
i donno how to use words to describe that feeling):
Labels: i donno if im able to take it anymore
