09 AUG 09
happy birthday to singapore!!
but i totally no mood to celebrate): sigh):
later meeting steadss for ton night, i hope i wont think anymore!
i feel so weak and useless!!
i don dare to sleep in my room anymore!! totally don dare!!
i find it so lonely and dark, im scare):
used to have him by my side but no more now):
then last night, i went over to squeeze to sleep with my litle brother..
i hugged his small little hand before i could sleep):
how i really donno how, i donno how long this gonna takes???
wenever my mind and heart starts to went wild, i would hug my small little brother and this really help me to stop thinking! not only that, i will oso asked him to give me a kiss to my cheek to make me feel better!!
now im really scare to be alone):
i donno how to climb up, i really donno how!!
i tot i alr face the facts, but i just cant do it yet!!
just now wen i asked my small brother to get me tissue, he looked into my eyes, see if im crying but i need it for some other reasons..
he knows that i need him alot, that why he will be there for me!!
ilovemysmalllittlebrother!!!
